So I'm having a reflective yet very thankful day.
Do you ever have those days where you find out some news and it just makes you thankful for every moment you have with your family and friends. Today has been one of those days. A friend of mine who was about 34 weeks pregnant was put on bed rest last week because of her blood pressure. After her regular appointment they decided to go ahead and take the baby 6 weeks early because the baby was stressed. The baby is only 3 lbs and was flown to Spokane to the
NICU. As I was praying for this family this morning all I could think about was how lucky I am that we didn't end up in the same situation. Looking back, I took my pregnancy very seriously especially when it became "high risk." I did everything I was supposed to do and took care of myself and Isaac. But today I firmly believe that God kept certain things of what could have happened out of mind to protect me. I am a very optimistic person, however when it comes to me, I have to think about every possible outcome and prepare myself for that outcome. Everything I prepare for usually doesn't happen ;-) I think that's God's way of reminding me He is in control and I am not. As I was praying, it
donned on me that we
could've been in that same situation. Looking back, if Isaac would have been born about 6 weeks early, he would've been around 3-4 lbs if we were lucky. We
could've been in the
same situation. I am now understanding why my mom was so worried (more than the "I'm your mother and you're away and having a baby" worried) God protected us yet again. As I held Isaac this morning I prayed that God would help me to cherish every moment. Those moment when as a mom you feel as though you might pull your hair out from the screaming or from the fact that you can't get anything done because every time you move he's into something else or when we all need to sleep and in his new found freedom rolls around and scoots himself into the corner of the bed and gets stuck and screams like a stuck pig until I get there to help him. All you wanted to do was put the laundry in the dryer but it took you a 1/2 hour because he was into something else. I prayed that even in those moment when I feel like I might loose my mind, that God would help me to cherish those moment and be thankful that I had those moments. Many long for moments like that. I said when I got pregnant that I would be thankful for every pain and sleepless night. I think all and all I did pretty good on the complaining side. I tried to be thankful for those hard moments after praying so long for a baby, yet I forget to pray that I would be thankful for the hard moments as a mom and yes, I know its only
beginning ;-) In the midst of life I find myself more and more thankful for the hard moments because they teach me things. They remind me that I can't do life on my own. There's a reason I feel frustrated and discouraged at times. Usually because I'm telling God that I can handle this on my own. If you don't know already I'm very stubborn and I don't like to ask for or take help. God is teaching me that I need to be thankful for the good and the bad. James 1:2 is a verse I've always struggled with. "Consider it pure joy...." How am I supposed to consider some things pure joy. Then I think about my friend and some family and some church family that are
struggling with so many health issues and I think God, my burden is so light in comparison to theirs. How can I complain when You have kept me safe and always protected me even when I don't know it.
So yes, I'm on the serious side this morning, but I feel like God is just impressing on me that I need to be more thankful for what I have rather than thinking about what I don't have or being concerned with what might happen. He is yet again reminding me that He is in control. He has a plan so much bigger than ours. Our
VBS is a prime example. We had 23 kids registered, we've had 40 or more every night. We set our goal for the offering for our missionaries at $100. I was going to be surprised if we made it. As of last night (only our second night for taking the offering) we had $81.63. Once again God's plans for
VBS have been so much bigger than mine. Isn't it just so amazing that God has a much bigger plan? How limited would our lives be if we lived without His plan.
I leave asking you to pray for my friend. God is not surprised that her baby was born early. He knew this long before He created this little boy. But I ask you to pray for them. God knows all of their needs and will provide.