So our things have been here for almost a week and slowly but surely we're feeling more at home and more settled every day. We found when we got our stuff that many of our larger items were damaged along the way. After everything else now our stuff is scratched or water stained or has this black grease like stuff all over it. Especially the boys WHITE baby furniture. We feel like God is really asking us to put action to our words and really back up what we've been saying when we say it's just stuff and if need be it can be replaced. No stuff for a month, many different dates of arrival then when it does arrive, it's all dirty, damaged and stained. So frustrating. But I've had to remind myself several times while cleaning all the boys furniture again that it's just stuff. For me it's hard because I like to plan things and this was not my plan. I carefully picked each piece of furniture in their room to match just the way I waned. I picked it to last for a long time, knowing that they will most likely use it till they leave our house. I picked it practically and economically knowing we have never really bought new furniture so I wanted this to be perfect. Now it's functional, but not attractive at all. But God keeps reminding me in light of our circumstances and everything going on in he world, that our furniture being damaged isn't really that big of a deal. If we choose to replace it we will. (Don't worry I am filing a damage claim with the company and I'll be asking them to replace it for me)
God has taught us so many things throughout this journey or as Scott says, Chapter 5 of our book. God has shown us His faithfulness time and time again. Bill bought me a Beth Moore devotional journal. It has been amazing. Every time I pick it up I'm amazed that the things she wrote long again are so pertinent to my life right now. God has really used her writings to help me through this time. She wrote in my reading the other day "God chose David. On the surface, the choice made no sense. But God doesn't work on sense; He works on grace."So what I needed to hear at that moment. Sometimes the places God puts us and the situations He has us go through don't make a lot of sense to us. Sometimes we're just plain dumbfounded at why He does what He does. But I would follow this journey any day. It's hard yet easy at the same time. God has taken away much of my worry about our situation. I am so thankful that my Savior loves me unconditionally. Even when I worry, even when I disappoint Him, even when I just down right fail. He loves me. A chorus of an older song keeps running through my head this week and it says "How I love you, child I love you, how I love you." I have been reminded of God's love for me so much as we live through this journey every day.
We still aren't 100% sure what God wants for us at this point. We are pursuing some job opportunities but we don't have anything set in stone right now. We know He will provide the perfect job but still giving us the opportunity to serve Him in a full time capacity.